Friday, January 7, 2011

Not knowing.


Yesterday I cried.
Maybe because I felt sad, maybe because I could not say what I wanted to say...
or maybe because not knowing and getting along with the doubt are things that contradict myself.
Weakness? Fear?
Mostly fear...
But for the first time in my life I´m not afraid of being hurt but of hurting others, for the first time it scares me to death the thought of doing things wrong, of being uncapable of keeping it safe.
But, at the end, not knowing is part of the plan, it is what makes us who we are and allows us to stand where we are...
And it´s some kind of wonderful that not knowing is what makes us strong; it is what gives us the certainty that we´re doing things right, that we will be just fine no matter what the answer may be.

9 comments:

Linda Bob Grifins Korbetis Hall said...

don't cry..
you are doing well..

Gugo said...

I havent share fear since a while, and it's good to know that we can carry each others loads over our backs, thats what real friends are for :)
I'll keep on taking care of all of you!

Anonymous said...

"But for the first time in my life I´m not afraid of being hurt but of hurting others."

A wonderful and selfless statement.

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

There is no reason for crying in not knowing and while you are doing well.
I recall a quote:-

He who knows not and knows not that he knows not, is asleep, awake him.

He who knows not and knows that he knows is a fool shun him.

He who knows not and knows that he knows not, is a student, teach him.

He who knows and knows that he knows is a prophet, follow him.

Hence no reason to cry.

Anonymous said...

Tears help clear our vision. They are meant to be cleansing.

Dishilicious said...

OMG!! i hear you. no. I FEEL YOU!!! every word, i really do get it. things will be fine, take one day at a time, that's all we can do right? :) xo

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TALON said...

This is touching. Staring out afraid and then ending up in a place of hope...

Yes, not knowing is a good thing...if not for that, we might never ever move forward.